It was a great night with Z yesterday. For a couple of hours, it was amazing but then, we had a huge fight for the first time since we reunited last August. I'm not sure how the fight came out but one thing for sure, he still love me like before eventhough i really try to piss him off with my foul words.

Deep in my heart, i don't want to hurt him but when i do hurt him badly with my words, i feel reenergized, i feel alive and i feel sooo POWERFUL! Gosh....he's sooo mad, i can see it in his eyes but after all, i feel GREAT when making him sooo miserable.

But after that, i do feel crushed. I realised i do miss him so badly. I broke into tears in front of him when he decided to leave the place. I know it's my fault but i can't control myself from saying all that foul words because still thinking about the betrayal he made to me during our great relationship two years ago.

Later, i keep on apologising to him. As usual, he stay calm and slowly push me over him and hugged me for soo long. I felt sooo in love again and this time, i made up my mind that i'll stand by him no matter what. I do love him soo much and can't think about anything else for the whole day.

After almost 20 minutes he left, i received a sms from him, saying that he's already at home and ask me to stop crying. He likes to see me crying but don't fancy it at all. He asked me to sleep early dan he'll ring me in the morning. I feel soo touched with it and i sms him & told that i miss him dearly.

Though he didn't ring me in the morn', he do send me sms at 3.00 pm and asked me to wake up and go to work. Aaahh...he's such a sweetie and adorable. Can't wait to see him again next week & this time, I promise not to break his heart again with my foul words eventhough i'm still mad at what he had done to me before.

FAizAH 'KiMi' MOhaMeD at 11:57 PM | Comments

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